Guys, sharing reduces pain and raises gain. I was going through many postings on 'rejection by woman' on the Net and how to cope with it, I found they all are aimed at the maiden luv or young luv. This blog is born of that frustration that is more searing than the rejection i experience now.
For Devil's sake understand luv can visit you at any age any time anywhere.I am talking of man-woman luv, not general luv. I being a senior and at the wrong end of 50, I was happy and exhilarated when a woman much younger than I am reposed her faith and luv in me. Don't ask if it was legitimate.It's not as both of us are married.But there was not much to carp at as we were not carried away by our love but kept within the limits to draw mutually the happiness and inspiration that oils the grinding life. What else but love remain in the world as we hurtle towards death?
And, here is the catch. A woman's mind works like the universe--mysterious. Where men find virtue they find vice, where men find vice they find virtue--no demeaning I mean, honest fact. What men find unacceptable is something that attract them. I found this in many women.
Again, back to the experience. This Ms.X came emotionally drained with so many personal things.I gave her the emotional support, went along with her within the limits of societal boundary. She would not live without hearing my voice several times a day. She said she felt happy and relieved in my presence and never felt better....Months passed and with some variations, quarrels, lov and reunion, we continued.
Then came the break. She went on a month-long programme away from the city. She never had gone out of home for all these years. She thoroughly enjoyed it. I was glad she sounded so happy when talked on phone.Thne she came back and....started behaving oddly. She would not admit it so but would say she found a man so caring and helpful in her course-time. She extolled his deeds. At first i took it lightly but the lyrics went on for many days. The the second stage set in. She has begun to find many holes in my behaviour which had escaped her attention before. But she would not admit this. She would say she knew my flipside earlier but kept it to herself.Why? couldn't she have blasted me and set me right? No she would put up a martyr's face and talk of many imaginary injuries to her psyche I caused. She is surely pining for the man who is younger to her,no matter he belongs to another culture, another faith. And yet she would deny she is in love with him! But his memory breaks her heart! Heard of such poppycock before?
Well, I know the disease but don't know the cure. The fact is I really like her and she was adding zest to my work, if not life altogether. Losing it is not easy--that too, unwarned. She keep saying nothing much is wrong with between us. But I believe there is. Do you have a remedy to deal with this? have you faced similar situation?
For Devil's sake understand luv can visit you at any age any time anywhere.I am talking of man-woman luv, not general luv. I being a senior and at the wrong end of 50, I was happy and exhilarated when a woman much younger than I am reposed her faith and luv in me. Don't ask if it was legitimate.It's not as both of us are married.But there was not much to carp at as we were not carried away by our love but kept within the limits to draw mutually the happiness and inspiration that oils the grinding life. What else but love remain in the world as we hurtle towards death?
And, here is the catch. A woman's mind works like the universe--mysterious. Where men find virtue they find vice, where men find vice they find virtue--no demeaning I mean, honest fact. What men find unacceptable is something that attract them. I found this in many women.
Again, back to the experience. This Ms.X came emotionally drained with so many personal things.I gave her the emotional support, went along with her within the limits of societal boundary. She would not live without hearing my voice several times a day. She said she felt happy and relieved in my presence and never felt better....Months passed and with some variations, quarrels, lov and reunion, we continued.
Then came the break. She went on a month-long programme away from the city. She never had gone out of home for all these years. She thoroughly enjoyed it. I was glad she sounded so happy when talked on phone.Thne she came back and....started behaving oddly. She would not admit it so but would say she found a man so caring and helpful in her course-time. She extolled his deeds. At first i took it lightly but the lyrics went on for many days. The the second stage set in. She has begun to find many holes in my behaviour which had escaped her attention before. But she would not admit this. She would say she knew my flipside earlier but kept it to herself.Why? couldn't she have blasted me and set me right? No she would put up a martyr's face and talk of many imaginary injuries to her psyche I caused. She is surely pining for the man who is younger to her,no matter he belongs to another culture, another faith. And yet she would deny she is in love with him! But his memory breaks her heart! Heard of such poppycock before?
Well, I know the disease but don't know the cure. The fact is I really like her and she was adding zest to my work, if not life altogether. Losing it is not easy--that too, unwarned. She keep saying nothing much is wrong with between us. But I believe there is. Do you have a remedy to deal with this? have you faced similar situation?
